No hope...

            He left home at 5 am. After work he went somewhere to wait for the game. Ok, I can understand that it had no sense to come back home and then go there again. But the game have finished two and a half hours ago and he's still not here. He texted me 2 hours ago that he'll be soon. I called him few minutes ago and he's still there! He even won't see his daughter awake today:( And Patrick keeps asking me what time Roy will be at home. What should I say? I even don't know if he'll come back... I don't know if I want him to come back...
            I feel empty inside. I have no hope for this relationship anymore. I'm still in but I can't explain why. Love can't be an answer for everything. You can love but at the same time you have to respect yourself.
           I feel sick again and can't eat. Where is this whole situation taking me?