Will it ever finish?!
We keep arguing all the time. From one side I want to keep this relationship and from the other I'm asking myself - what for?! I've never been so unahppy, have never felt like this. After I finished with my husband I promised myself that I won't let anyone to hurt me again. Now I think that what my husband did to me was nothing cos at least I didn't care about him that much. He was hurting my body but believe me - hurt feelings are worst! I'm not the same person anymore and probably won't be. Something died inside of me. I have no idea what I'm gonna do now but I have two kids I'm responsible for so have to live for them. I have to ferget this guy...
We had quite nice Friday but yesterday night he started chattin with one of his friends. I wasn't upset that he's chattong, just a little bit ennoyed cos it was very late (1 a.m)and I don't think it was a time for chatting, especially that we have PC in the bedroom so I couldn't sleep). I wanted to go to sleep in the living-room but passing next to him I saw the last message he received from that girl - were u a bad boy? What the fuck was that?! He keeps doing this shit all the time and cannot have a normal conversation with anyone! Then he told her that I'm upset cos he's chatting with her, that I caught him with Luana, that I wanna have more babies so I can have more benefits and it's cos I'm fucking polish! I won't forgive him that... He keeps calling me names like: slut, sleezy bitch etc. He becames more cruel every single time and quite violet too. I really dind't know him I guess. But I don't care anymore. He's dead for me. I'll take some time for my grief and then I'll try to forget and start living again. Without any man...
We had quite nice Friday but yesterday night he started chattin with one of his friends. I wasn't upset that he's chattong, just a little bit ennoyed cos it was very late (1 a.m)and I don't think it was a time for chatting, especially that we have PC in the bedroom so I couldn't sleep). I wanted to go to sleep in the living-room but passing next to him I saw the last message he received from that girl - were u a bad boy? What the fuck was that?! He keeps doing this shit all the time and cannot have a normal conversation with anyone! Then he told her that I'm upset cos he's chatting with her, that I caught him with Luana, that I wanna have more babies so I can have more benefits and it's cos I'm fucking polish! I won't forgive him that... He keeps calling me names like: slut, sleezy bitch etc. He becames more cruel every single time and quite violet too. I really dind't know him I guess. But I don't care anymore. He's dead for me. I'll take some time for my grief and then I'll try to forget and start living again. Without any man...
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