I feel so bad that just wanna scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'd like to be enough strong to escape from this relationship. Fuck! I can say over and over that I don't love him but I do! Fuck, fuck, fuck! And I know he loves me too but he can't have me and the others at the same time. If he was so bad all the time it would be easier but being with him makes me happy in some strange way. Cannot explain what is it, but I feel very comfortable in his arms. The one thing that is destroying this relatioship is his obsessive interest in women and nothing I say doesn't change that. I'm so so so tired... Or I have to accept him like he is or have to find the one that I'll be the one for him too.